LE PAPILLON MONARQUE

MUSIC PAINTING - Glocal Sound - Matteo Negrin

2011-01-05T20:11:00.000-08:00

*** nice video that i wish to share here, nothing to do with my post below though***

recently had been caught in a lot of dilemmas...
a lot of changes coming up in my life. for better or for worse,
life will neva be the same again for me.

im not sure bout others, seems to me it's easier for them to
make a decision/ make a change when they believe it's time to do so.
(or it could be my selective abstraction in observing these)
but for me. it's always tough.
and it's gettin harder and harder for me to choose a path.

i've lost a lotsa confidence in me.
lost:
-the strength to believe in my own judgement.
-the strength to withstand bystander's opinions and assumptions
-the strength to take risk, to TRY and WAIT and SEE ( and/or TRY AGAIN)
-the strength to LET GO of unpick options..

i think the biggest problem in making a decision for me,
is to know that whateva i pick, there's another thing that i have to let go.
knowing that devastates me,
especially when we can never be sure where the option we chose might leads us to.
and we'll never know.

I NEED TO FIND MYSELF BACK AGAIN!
I DONT GIVE A DAMN IF PPL TEL ME AGAIN THAT I OVERESTIMATED MYSELF,
OR SAID ANYTHING THAT PULLS ME DOWN AGAIN
(which had been eating out my self esteem since then, oh no, not now, not anymore)
i want to have my vanity back, and some sense of insanity too!!
26 years of living : i found that no matter what you do, or what you dont do,
people stil have something to say bout you. so to hell kepochiss.
they just wipe their ass off after hurting you and there you are,
left wounded and shrunken like a tiny lil mimosa, CLOSING UP yaself.

ohya bout the ppl i've met in 2010.

negative ppl:
- selfish leeches (those who comes to you when they needs you. and vanishes when they dont and uses ppl only for their own benefit.. yucksss)
-pretentious ( those who pretend to be like an innocent sweet angel but kiss my ass, her real self disgusts me a lot. but im glad, i wil soon say bye bye to ppl like YOU, oh you have the aforementioned characteristic too, congratulations)
-self defeating ones ( im one of them. lost before the battle. low low self-worth... fml)

positive ppl:
-determined and visionary ( one that not only dreams but also execute their plans
-positive, vibrant and charming ( some guys and gals that i salute a lot)
-happy and energetic ( high levels of energy and always seems ready for challenges and chances!)
-friendly and genuine ( maintaing positive energy with the social system, gives and takes with sincerity)
-the go-ers ( believe in self and do whateva they believed in, even sometimes in the costs of other's disapproval and discouragement)

GUESS i have many role models for my inspiration!
2011. i wanna be a better person.
physically,
psychologically,
mentally,
socially,
wholely,
constructively,
positively!

p/s i've made a list of tasks that i need to do:
some new year's resolution perhaps. **coming up in next post**
(oh. speaking about last year's resolution, i think out of so many of them,
i've only achieved ONE, Shame on me, Caren :(

anyway. wil sum up last year's ups and downs, in my next post too, so see ya'al

interesting post (cut & paste from facebook)

2010-12-14T03:21:00.000-08:00

this is a post i copied from fb.

i dont usually 'plagarize' other ppl's work but this article inspires me a lot,

and hopefully to my fellow counselling students,

换了你，你会杀了谁？（启发很大）

by Vin Zai Zai on Monday, November 29, 2010 at 10:48am

朋友拿了一份报纸要我作个实验，我同意了。

问题一：如果你知道一个女人怀孕了，她已经生了8个小孩子了，其中有3个耳朵聋，2个眼睛瞎，一个智能不足，而这个女人自己又有梅毒，请问，你会建议她堕胎吗？

我刚要回答，朋友制止了我，又问我第二个问题。

问题二：现在要选举一名领袖，而你这一票很关键，下面是关于3个候选人的的一些事实：

候选人A：跟一些不诚实的政客有往来，而且会星象占卜学。他有婚外情，是一个老烟枪，每天喝8到10杯的马丁尼。

候选人B：他过去有过2次被解雇的记录，睡觉睡到中午才起来，大学时吸鸦片，而且每天傍晚会喝一大夸特威士忌。

候选人C：他是一位受勋的战争英雄，素食主义者，不抽烟，只偶尔喝一点啤酒。从没有发生婚外情。

请问你会在这些候选人中选择谁？

我把答案写在纸上，然后朋友告诉我：

候选人A是富兰克林罗斯福，候选人B是温斯顿丘吉尔，候选人C是亚道夫希特勒。

我听了答案张大了嘴巴。朋友问我你是不是为人们选择了希特勒？那你会建议哪个妇女去堕胎吗？

我说：这个问题不用考虑，我们受优生优育教育多年了，都生那么多歪瓜劣枣了，就别在添乱了。我建议她去堕胎。

朋友告诉我：你杀了贝多芬，她是贝多芬的母亲。

我又一次张大了嘴巴。朋友说：吓一跳吧？本来以为你认为很好的答案，结果却扼杀了贝多芬，创造了希特勒？

最后的总结是：所以不要用既定的价值观来思考事物！

Yashi-No-Mi

2010-12-14T01:51:00.000-08:00

sneaked out with jingyen and yun the other day to Pavi for Jap food.

This was supposed to be our ladies-out but then we met another member @esprit pavillion, name:

Datin Kenneth. after tellin him that we're going for jap food, he suggested this place ( the jap cafe/restaurant which we planned to go at the 1st place)

>> a Japanese Cafe located in Wisma Cosway just besides Pavillion.

Yashi-no-Mi

i forgot why they did this but it's cute to see both of them doing something silly

i was bit shy/scared to take photos as i stereotyped japanese as being fierce and that i have to follow to imaginary rules ( oh, one of my cognitive distortions again, arbitrary inferences)

this restaurant is run by "original" jap. thus there's something special about the vibe here. * but they played bsb songs instead of jap songs, such a killjoy*

dint know that there's this cozy warm lil place in Malaysia, well i dont feel like im in Malaysia when i was in this restaurant.

despite the small humble size of the restaurant, it's very popular among jap expats who worked here, i was told that they'd come to enjoy drinks/sake/sochu after their work. we saw about 8-10 of them sitting at the table next to us. ( the gals told me there's a handsome one right beside me i was too terrified to even turn my head to look at em)

As a sushi fanatic, i was shocked to know that they do not serve sushi here in this JAP RESTAURANT.
how come???? never mind, i'll order something else (hmmmpppffff... bu4-gan1-yuan4)

cute original japanese menu, written in japanese language ( which we dont understand) so i can only order by looking at the scarce pictures and their respective prices

kenneth said the jap love to have this "natto" to go along with their beer.
well to us, ladies " err... it tastes..........'unique' " till i dont know how to describe.

Spagetti served in Mentaiko sauce *loves their potato salad!*

food here is not bad, but i enjoyed more in the environment plus company of great friends, another day worth spending.
*cos we impulsively headed to @live at sunway pyramid that night :D teeheehee, photos soon!

HomeTown Steamboat

2010-12-14T01:26:00.000-08:00

one fine evening, i suddenly craves for crab ( er.. i mean, as always la. ) thus suggested to have steamboat near my place @ setapak. Yao agreed *hurray* still, i dont think he understands how much i love eating crabs *Moans in pleasure**

'must-order' in steamboat

i love their refreshing sea coconut-longan drink :) not too sweet, great for quenching thirst after ya sinful tomyam soup

Anyway im gonna skip thru all the boring meatballs/fishballs/U.F.Os/veges/prawns/etc

and talk about the main highlight ----> drum rolls ***************

YB Crab!

after tossing the crab into nothing but zee tasty soup (clear, not tomyam as tomyam soup will override the original flavos of the crab), the soup becomes sweeter in taste, excellent for cookin ya bihun/yeemee/egg as the finale.

the al-mighty juicy scrumptious Cheliped (my fav part of the crab) !! yao gave this to me because it's larger!

as compared to his --> pathetically small. after swallow also bo-ra-sa!

OH MY OH MY (i ate this very very slowly, savoring every bites! the flesh is so TMD fresh. i can die right now

on the side note: the weather is just purrfect for steamboat
abit chilly chilly, and it was 7pm like that... not so crowded

a diagram for those who doesnt know how to eat a crab (pity you)

do you think i eva have the chance to taste this in my life??? *PRAY HARD***

Pho HoA vietnamese cuisine

2010-12-14T00:56:00.000-08:00

im so hungry now, gonna post some long overdue photos to visually satisfy my cravings.

how cruel.. but my thigh is gettin bigger each second, i cant afford to take in more sinful delicacies. T-T

i have so many photos of him lookin at the menuS.

just in case you wanna know where it is

he is forever shy, shawn, The Brada!

not my best pic. i look old in this, (tired and super duper hungry fttmax)

yao's beef Pho Tai,
i love beef but i've promised GuanYinMa in Krabi that i wont take beef anymore, hoping that she would love me more and more...

loads of greens *MAX Love*

sharing this with didi, vermicelli bowl/ Bun Thit Nuong Cha Gio ( as if you know how to pronoune *roll-eye*)

this is superduperorgasmicsinfullydeliciouxtothemaxo.m.g.
Cream Blended Avocado with ice cream and nata de coco.

my FaV > the avocado dessert mentioned above, every drops of it sent me to heaven!

black is back!

2010-12-10T00:55:00.000-08:00

omg this is ancient:

so i was so bored of myself ~~and life~~ and my washed-out looks on the photos, i made a MEGA decision!

desperately in need of a change!!

cut my hair? (brilliant idea but i've got no balls, unlike sis charlene who cruelly chopped off her hair above shoulder length, she looks great and dolly in it.. but i just ...err..... =.=)

perm it? straighten it? (ARGGGHHH.... again?? )

or maybe...

...a change of COLOUR**

@ my favourite hair saloon near wangsa maju.

I dig their nostalgic, vintage style... :) suits my taste very much..

so i've decided to dye it BLACK... but the stylist refused to (haha.. he just want me to consider and reconsider because once i dye it black, it would be difficult to have lighter color for years.. thus after taking looonnnnnggggg careful consideration, he ~~forced~~ adviced me not to choose black, but the darkest brown which he then mixed with a hint of purple and red to make it look more "mohagany".

pictures to replace my wordy description >>

***before***

and ***after***

(OKAY, i know biting my lips doesnt make me look sexier but my nostrils bigger..)

the colour turns out to be very nice at 1st.

plus, i feels so different and fresh with dark hair.

younger, sexier *ahem* and more mysterious (not that im as such but it gives an illusion of these)!

some of the mAnY pHotOs i took after changing my hair colour.

*TRIES HARD TO LOOK LIKE A BOMBSHELL BUT FAILED*

*WITH MY WORK ATTIRE* (Seldom wear like this to class anyway, always t-shirt/black blouse/black trousers/jeans that spells 'b-o-r-i-n-g'

*in His car, otw back from JB -> KL* (black looks good with my turqoise tees) ( oh i must highlight this, the red plastic bag on the bottom right corner contains fried durian which is OMG-uber-orgasmic-yummy-licious. one bite and you'll be on heaven)

*in mama's room @ subang house* pardon the poor quality of photo taken by my 'pari-ah' hp. perhaps i should get sponsored a decent camera or a new phone with a decent camera?

all of these dint last long though, right after a month, the colours faded and it appears brown-ish (boring) again. imma crazy, rushed back to the saloon and ask them to dye my hair again... ** sylist shoke head** they tried to stop me again (for my own good) but then my id gets stronger than the superego and VOILA! my ultimate BLACK-ISH BLACK hair (which photos couldnt justify!)

love my hair now but really need to maintain it as the roots got very very very very dry after multiple chemical traumas..... (in-saloon treatments are all so expensive T-T ) ~~$$$$$$$$$$$$$~~

so, what do you think? sui bo? chanteek bo???????

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Oh yea, gonna blog about daddy's new love very very soon

*this is the dog i wanna have in near future, name: GUCCI!*

doesnt matter what you think, I adore the COLOUR!

** i know the photo below is irrelevant, i just wanna show you how shiny my hair can be**

note: bottom left corner is MWA!

*photo taken : the datins' night out @ g6 (blog post coming soon)

this one *

nothingness

2010-10-10T22:24:00.000-07:00

my.life.is.dry.dry.dry

ny ways.. simple pleasures gained from doing nothing.

alright .. except taking vain photos of myself on bed:)

Dolce fa niente...

happiness of doing absolutely nothing or live a day without an exact purpose

randomzzzz

2010-08-16T08:07:00.000-07:00

not in the mood to write so this post should be a phlog instead of blog.

its like you have a lot of leftovers in the fridge and it feels so wasted if you were to throw it all away, thus frying everything together... goreng goreng

1. durian feast! near our house --with char char, win win and yao yao (geli~), not much photos taken nyways cos we're busy eating.

like heaven!!

2. lunch with brother christopher after his violin class

his 1st time trying Nandos, and he LOVE it! (both of us often have the same taste, nature? or nurture?) he's growing up too fast dy! his height spurts!!! soon he will be taller than me.

still remember takin care of him when he's still that tiny lil baby... awwww... ( reminds me that i aged too)
look alike bo?
3. oki... some vain moments (camwhorin using my mac book. as you can see there're many others camwhorin pictures there)

-m experimenting with eyeshadow. guess i'll neva use eyeshadow correctly.

4. you have to love my earrings! blue dream catcher? :)

5. went to find a friend at his saloon to do my hair. wanted to chop it all at 1st, but after his advice ( and my reluctant), we both agreed that long hair suits me betta. so he just help me do some relaxin to prevent frizzy hairs..

char char went together with me too, she cut/dyed/permed her hair. :) and i love her new look!

both edwin and yao joined us later for dinner at U Village. (hong kong-style restaurant)

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wish to blog more often as i have piles and piles of photos in my mac (some in yao's phone T-T)

can do me a favor? pls simply click on the advertisement beside thank you! *wont cost you a cent :)

thanks! bye and take care , more to come!

sweetchat+ Khangwei's ochestra performance + Wings cafe +david's bigday!

2010-08-16T05:58:00.000-07:00

Sunday 18 July,

buddy Kapal-ter-Pang khang wei invites us to his orchestra performance @ shaw parade, he plays the er-hu.

sounds old-skul? nop, not at all for his orchestra members, the Vivo Experimental Orchestra (VEO).

i love the way they interpret and express their own music. fun, energetic, and so much more ALIVE!

nyways. im so lazy today. just gonna post some pictures and end this abruptly. terima-kajih!

had dinner with yao @ sweetchat before goin to the performance.

verdict? er.. so so nia.

nyways i love the durian pancake as illustrated above

or..i mean i love everything with durian in it.

i have a HUGE collection of photos, of yao looking at MENUS.

next time i should post them. shouldnt i?

so happy.

women feel happy from the heart.

men feel happy from their stomach.

i swear i can cook spaghetti way betta than them!!

usually dont use eyeshadow but that night gatal gatal wanna apply, and regret x100000 later at night when everyone ask me (in a very genuine way) that m i not well/ or m i very tired...

(T-T), regret x100000 after looking at my hideous face on photos.

celebrated David's birthday later that night (his BD on 19th July :

4 years ago, this is the day when yao 1st mentioned that he misses me, and thus from that time onwards i know how he felt for me * aww** )

me and yao drew that on his BD cake.

1st we asked the secret recipe staff whether she can write in chinese onot. ( which she obviously couldnt cos she's a malay) and then we ask if we can write on our own. she then agree, and the moment we get hold of the icing bag ---- creativity sparks!!

yao looked at me as how i looked at him. and we started to draw on the cake:)

i drew the 'supposed-to-be-monkey', and he wrote david's chinese name. ( they're Brothers, and yao wrote his name wrongly) on purpose? i have no comment.

*notice that monkey has an extra long *somethin*

with gang :)

see i look like some supernatural thingy in this photo.

nihon kei

2010-07-15T02:43:00.000-07:00

another fav spot for sushi-cravings.

>> nihon kei near old klang road.

it's slightly more costly than ichiban. but of better quality.

the food there're very fresh, you should be able to indulge in their original taste (especially sashimi). not much on seasoning or extra addictives.

kurage

chuka wakame ( seasoned seaweed)

look at the thickness.. it's huge compared to sushi's from other restaurant

salmon ( thick thick also)

ebiko gunkan? i forgot the name

yao also cant help but taking pictures

my dinner set that comes with rice and soup and pickles

hot green tea with sushi - always the best

sake also not bad:)

HAPPY MOI!!!

yumyum jap food:) will neva get bored of these XP
eat to live or live to eat? :)

oiishii!!!ichiban!

2010-07-15T01:21:00.000-07:00

introducing one of my fav makan-spot >>>

ICHIBAN BOSHI!!

located in Pavillion, near the food court. this restaurant is always flooded by jap-food-lovers.

almost EVERYTIME when im in pavi, i'll visit this place to satiate my appetite.

there was once, i even went there alone while waiting for yao to finish his work near there.

my ALL TIME FAVOURITE!

there'll be sparks of happiness in your eyes when you munch this thingy in ya mouth.

the soft, smooth, sweet and juicy flavo of thick-sliced salmon plus mayo. absolutely great combination! like me and yao.

after tryin sushi here, i dont feel like going back to sakae sushi / sushi king/ whateva ciplak sushi restaurant.

this is also something that i MUST order everytime!!

chuka kurage

seasoned-jellyfish

yao always like to try new things, like the one below.

for me it's so-so lo. i still (only) stick to my favs cos they're the BEST.

dunno what don.

good if you're hungry and if those small tiny little meow meow sushi arent sufficient for you

Yao's FAV > inari sushi

OUR FAV!

dunno what XXXX hotate.

it means scallop

cheese baked scallop with special sauce inside :)

recently fall in love with their SOBA

hand-made noodles.

it's superbly tasty!

now every time we walk in and sat, i'll kiasu-ly order " 1 green tea, hot. sweet sauce for 2, 1 chuka kurage, 1 mini chasoba, i salmon premium"

and after that we'll just flip thru the menu and order the rest, enjoying our night with gossips and laughter :)

life as a (stunning) teacher...cough cough PART 2

2010-07-15T00:32:00.000-07:00

there you go, some other pictures we took during our dev. psychology class.

there's so much magic you can do with clay

some of my students' work.. amazing right??

look at that tiny lil blue sperm. very cute indeed

delicate work here..

almost 'porno'

the victorious sperm-man

adorable blastula

the awe a lot of ppl.

tong-yuen

isit keith's? i forgot

vincent hiding behind the paper.

there's an "end" in "friend" ??

2010-07-05T09:59:00.000-07:00

what is friendship to you?

-attachment?

-accompanyment?

-understanding?

-trust?

-supports?

-sharing?

to me,

it's gettin harder for me to find someone real.

especially when authenticity has not been valued in recent days.

there's not much chances of getting close to someone,

when conveniency is becoming over-valued by almost all parties.

seems like no one like to lose anything for a relationship.

somehow,

reciprocity has been down played.

but, do friendship really involve reciprocity?

or in other words, is reciprocity really a necessity in a relationship?

like, do i need to do something 1st, to be 'classified' to become your friend?

or does it automatically upgrade on itself without any pre-requisites and qualifications?

last weekend in my house, i've did something strange yet interesting. very touched at the same time... it's like i found me again.

i read my old diaries.. diaries i used to write when i was in high school ( when i like someone, i mean someoneS )

inside those beautiful pages, and my infantile handwritting (doesnt change much from then til now)... i found true friendship.

a long lost feeling of how friendship really means to me.

sometimes i told yao.

i really dunno how to make friends.

when i mentioned friends. it's not activity partners.

it's someone you know you can call when you feel like talking to.

or someone you can cry on and doesnt need to pretend that you're okay

when you're not okay.

someone who acknowledge you as a special one for him/her like how you acknowledge him/her as your special one.

i miss those pure pure friendship back in those days.

when everyone is genuine and true.

when there's no advantages to be taken from anyone

and when there's no friendship to be taken for granted.

it's pure laughter, tears, support, and hanging out.

being comfortable of being yourself.

and being comfortable of being loved by others.

i miss all those.

i cherish all those.

i miss you, ching lee.

miss those days when i know even the whole world doesnt believe me, you will be there standing for me.

no jealousy for my triumph,

no negligence for my needs,

no distance when i reach out for you,

no double message when we talk to each another,

no guilt of not being a miss goody goody in front of ya,

no need to not be someone else but myself.

all through these years when you are far in your own world,

i will bless you in my dreams and pray for you from here.

i dont need to have you here.

cos you're already in my heart, filled up all those precious memories of mine.

if there's really an "end" in friendship.

perhaps we're not friends,

we're SOULMATES.

oki. at the same time searching for bff also..someone whom i can comfortably gets bitchy ( in a true and fun way ) with together, anyone wanna apply for vacancies? only for single-face ppl.

no fake voice, no fake responses, no selfish ppl who only care bout their own benefits, no leeches or parasites, no green-eye monsters, i think that's all.

dont get me wrong,

I STILL HAVE ( proud to have) a number of besties in my humble life.

dont really have to introduce one by one. you guys/gals know better yourself who i mean :)

yesh.. you guys..

never fail to make me laugh. never fail to brighten my days:)

oh. yao not counted.

cos he's full-time my man and full-time best friend and full-time-hubby.

inter-friend-sion

2010-07-02T19:36:00.000-07:00

for this post, let's assume ** is a person's name

and @@ is the pronoun for him/her.

last night i had a weird dream that i confronted ** and told @@ that i dont really agree with what @@ did, and doing.

wow. i was so bold and brave in my dreams. ( self- admire for 2 seconds)

but when i woke up, i felt relieved cos its just a dream.

so..now that im awake with my conscious mind, i started to wander

is it better to have confrontation or inter-friend-sion ( a term i learnt from sex and the city2)

to reveal how i felt bout @@ , or should i continue to be a silent observer and yet in my heart strongly detest everything ( well, almost) that @@ did/doing?

i believe majority of us have been through this dilemma.

being together as friends/lovers/ family members, we couldnt always and at ALL times ensure that our actions and attitudes satisfy ppl we care. so there have to be frictions sometimes..

especially if you need to stand up to your rights, you just have to walk pass those judging eyes.

but, what if someone you know is doing something personal to @@ life, i mean without interfering yours of whateva. but that something that @@ do , disgusts you.. will you go ahead and tell @@ frankly ? or just STFU and be an obedient bystander to these? Or learn to be what a counsellor should be, which is NON JUDGEMENTAL ( ah. come on. who won't judge on this),

well. that also depends on how close you are to @@, right?

if @@'s just someone who is not really that significant in your life. then probaby your advice would be MYOB . and it would definately ruin the bond between us.after all im pretty sure that people have their rights to do whateva they want in life, and who the hell we are to point to their nose to tell them what they should or shant do?

but if @@'s someone that carries certain weight in your life, probably voicing out would help clear the flem in the throat? and minimize the virtual distance between both of ya? as friends have to be true? to each another? and give subtle reminder if you think @@ 's behaviour is not okay? but what if @@ enjoys it and you're just nobody to judge anythin.

so let's weigh the consequences.

if i tell ( as seen in my dreams)

- @@ will stop doing that? (bullshit, but knowing @@, i strongly believe @@ wont stop)

- @@ will think that im a thoughtful and honest friend? ( err.. not sure maybe, but with little probability)

- @@ will get very pissed of ( thinking that there's nothing wrong with @@ and repel me?)

- @@ will get very upset over our friendship ( ahh... i dont wanna overestimate what i mean to @@)

- @@ will think that im only jealous? ( you've gotta be kidding me. im happy with my own life, and i luv my body, wit, fashion sense,and humor. okies, competition is always unhealthy plus i love my loved one.. theres nothing to be jealous about)

-@@ all of the above and still continue doing the thing @@ do

or,

if i just zipped my mouth and close both eyes?

-nothing bad will happen (to me)

-its not my problem also

-save all the fuss and drama ( im too busy and occupied for that)

-probably there's a part of me that is fake, i.e. continue to be kind to @@ which deep in my heart, struggling to run away from @@.

PERHAPS..

the safest way now is to learn how to

HEAR NO EVIL, SEE NO EVIL, SPEAK NO EVIL

and so, the sexy and almighty butter caren lim car yen decided to just swallow it down to my oesophagus and let it be digested intra-mwa!

and live happ..... wait.

something more i wanna say.. last few lines probably to those potential victims.

perhaps if i were you. i would wanna shop at pavillion instead of pasar malam.

in pavillion, not that many ppl, things that you might get is probably of higher quality and dignity, cos that's just more elegant longer lasting.

shoppin in pasar malam exposes you to a variety of "easily accessible goods" which is AFFORDABLE to many ppl because it's ahem, cheap. very cheap.

and if you look at the quality, it's short-lived.

comes and go easily.

for me, the latter is rather "diluted" . if you really insist on it, probably it just speaks you. your taste, your level.

****not to offend those pasar-malam shoppers who dig in cheap stuffs, i love buying cheap stuffs which you can just use and throw away. very convenient. but bear in mind, if the illustrated is meant to be metaphorizing ppl or a life- partner that you may be seeking, i would say, survey harder before you even bump into it, you wouldnt wanna end up with nothing, but a strong hint of stale, clouded, oily smell from the night market lingered upon your cloths and hair.

worse still, if you're only able to "rent" it. you thought its yours, but it isnt.

though ppl mentioned you have to follow your heart when it comes to terms like this,

but following your heart doesnt mean you have to block out that wise little voice from ya frontal lobe.

think with ya head on top, not the one below. =.=

*******************************************

oki, finally blurted out everything.

now i can live happily ever after, sleep sound and dream of my sweet chocolate, yao.

and selfishly leave this puzzling post to you :) LOL

if you're not that sure what im talkin bout. dont assume oh.

it's good to be mean sometimes writing mean posts to haunt you.

it's a valuble lesson guys. and you seriously dont have to thank me but yourself for reading my post.

still, love ya lots.

(peeps reading my page, **, yao, family and all beloved friends)

25th birthday part 1

2010-07-01T02:41:00.000-07:00

uber crazy celebration this year.

to compensate the sad truth that im now officially 25... very near to 30s. T-T

had my 1st prebirthday celebration with some friends in a hotel room full of foods/snacks/liqour.

ohya. just wanna hao-lian we had beer/vodka/red wine/dewar's/black label?/etc other liqour.

im in a rush so.. let the pics do the talkin.

special thanks to a lot of ppl:

yao who made this all possible,

edwin and ting that supports all the way ( edwin 's having early class the next morning, and doesnt mind the trouble of gettin a bus back home that same night.. so touched. luckily jing yen and her man were so kind to fetch her back) so thanks to the couple too..

david and yuin and another friend of theirs rushed here to join us right after their may-day concert. ( aww.... that's sweet)

the three musketeers -- malcx, william, wai sung joined us for the crazy nights too....

aww. im pampered!

my endless wish

good blower ;)

group photo1

group photo 2

3!!

sa-por char char hand-made a card for me.. im very very very touched.. appreciate all the love.

dunno why he's so happy

if there's riot or war outside, we can survive here for a month

thanks dear!!

ladies!

ignore my bald patch. im a lil tipsy

several days later. had dinner with babes peipei, char char, and yuin yuin at my ever-favourite jap restaurant-ichiban boshi @pavillion.

pei said it's to celebrate my bday. (again?)

anyhow we had a sweet sweet night chattin and gossipin..

aww..

love the photos too

alright.. then it's my birthday

yao brought me to a special place ... and... we had nice nice dinner at a fine-dining restaurant of equitorial hotel ( dunno how to spell. lazy to google)

live music, special seats, a stalk of rose, desserts and tantalizing meal.

will blog bout this in my next next post( pictures with yao)

when we reached home, housemates were there for another surprise cake:) a lot of love i dont deserve... a big hug for all of ya!!

towards the weekend,

we had a gathering for psycho-coursemate, /also to celebrate dorothy's baby's full moon.

and then there's my 4th cake

william threaten me with butter and im scared. yao's worried

at last. dippin ourselves in water! refreshing~~

this is so so funny. played a game with guys and see how long we can hold our breath inside the water ( actually to prank william.. we all went away after he immersed in water and hold his breath under the water alone.. thus he is the winner of the competition which consists of only one contestant.

love you guys. very much

life as a (stunning) teacher...cough cough

2010-06-27T00:16:00.000-07:00

teachin developmental psychology this semester, find this subject very interesting as it covers the events/processes that take place from the point of conception till death.

means including how a sperm meets the ovum ad growth into a zygote>embryo>fetus>birth>infant>children>adolescence>adult>old adult>dong-dong-qiang!!!

to make this even more interesting, we'll have tutorial activities from time to time ( so that it is not too dull n dry for my students, oki i mean me myself =.=)

so these are one of the activities we had for 2nd yr diploma students..

**they're required to use clay i bought to build a model to illustrate one of the 4 stages of prenatal development and childbirth**

when they're doing this they'll take initiative to know bout the details of prenatal development as well as remembering the process which takes place during these stages.

just a few pictures here.. will upload more this week. i love each of them very very much.they look damn cute and vibrant irl.

oki. my fringe looks funny here. who says that lecturer cannot have funny fringe??

colourful clays that gave a pinch on my pocket

students doing this in their most relaxed and leisure ways

dunno who's sperm is this... kinda huge

this looks very real irl

team work!!while gossiping other ppl's stuffs

these are only few of the many pictures we took... visit next week to read more!!!

hope they really like this!!

CNY

2010-03-02T03:13:00.001-08:00

had a blast this CNY :)

im stil suffering from post cny-withdrawal syndrome.

kinda depressed for awhile missing my sweet family and friendzz.

nyways..

this is the "post-mortem"

11 feb 10

had this lou-sang cum karaoke cum gathering session with ex-prefects

damn i so love them.... wouldnt get tired talkin bout those great old-days

of us bullyin students and etc.

joseph organized this gathering n many of us actually turned up :)!

by the way, photos pls!!!

had my 1st cny lou-sang there at klang. dunno why we need to go so far

but it's FUN :) was toasted lotsa red wine plus white wine.

went bit of tipsy.. but that's not all,

later that night , joined dorothys and her friends for our 2nd round @ zouk

cleaned my houz during the last few days before CNY

and i made pineapple tarts!!! for the effin 1st time of my life!

it doesnt look nice, but it taste GREAT!

yao can be the judge. (cos i purposely saved a tiny box of "the best of the best "cookies for him. lucky man!

13 feb 10 .

went shoppin with didi to buy my contact lenses.

lost my contacts on cny eve. what a joke.

losta shops were closed.. thank god i found it in parismiki, midvalley.

14 feb 10

mummy's birthday! and sadly it's V day.

yao's in penang thus we celebrated it earlier.

nyway, went grandma and ah-gu's house for 2nd lou-sang :)

will post bout V day later

15 feb 10

went TANGKAK with family plus didi mel's gorgeous gf, to my grandpa's brother's houz.

neva seen my biological grandpa in person before, neva had the chance to when he's alive,

they told me my shu-gong looks exactly the same like him, charming and sporting!

came back that night to join 5s1 's gathering :)

the last time i eva see them was freakin 8 years ago. time flies.

18 feb 10

went ah-yi's house and gambled.

nyahahah. won like 30 bucks??

19 feb 10

yao's parents came over for dinner.

my mighty mummy cooked for us!

then went straight to visit yao's relative's here in damansara

20 feb 10

u6b2's house-hoppin! bai nian tuan!

great great fun. we visited more than 10 houses in a single day!

tired but very very "rewarding"

photos in random order:

dentist cze-yin's houz

my humble hut!
yih horng's houz

wan sia's houz
hui xin's houz
dim sum lunch near ..? forgot where dy

the unofficial yum-sheng

yea yunn's houz ( we're on low batt mode dy)
suk kun's houz2suk kun's houz 1
jessica alba's oppssy.. shu woan's houz

pei leing's houzz
Lecturer-yi shion's houzz..

21 feb 10

movie true legend with my beloved family members and didi's gal @mid valley

dinner after that..

22 feb 10

extremely depress and unwilling to start working T-T lll

24 feb 10

lousang with utar psy gang!!

26 feb 10

shop shop n breakfast with dear yunyun

27 feb 10

k session with shuwoan, yeayunn, yishion, dorothys, yih horng.

shun bian celebrate horng's birthday on 28th.

**********************************til next year's cny*********

the dragon's backbone, tabur hill

2010-03-02T02:43:00.000-08:00

zchen asked, wanna climb hill?

not trekkin, is climbin.

he's actually goin with his friend and his friend's friends,

anyway, dorothys ' going too... might as well join too i thought.

we crazy ppl are sick of city life ..and im broke with pre-cny shoppin n stuffs,

and yet the thirst for some activities are so unbearable ( rottin at home is the last thing i wanna do) so.... a special getaway to be near to mother nature wont hurt the pocket i suppose?

and here it goes, my 1st hill-climbin @ tabur hill.

imma lazy today, so let the pics do all the talkin... teeheehee~

love at 1st sight. this thing is right in the middle of our vision view when we reach 2nd or 3rd lil peak.. forgot dy.

doesnt look anywhere like kl right? this is the left side of our view, the right side, on the contrary, is a charmin concrete jungle, you wil be able to see klcc n kl tower and stuffs like that.

so, it's an amazing combination of nature and man-made world.

dunno for what reason, my stupid butt looked effin huge here.. hmmmpppfff.. must climb climb climb more and shake those disturbin fats off me!

some relevant info bout this special hill as requested by some friends: i cut n paste from some website. what? you expect me to know these by maself? ya kiddin.

Worlds longest Crystal Quartz-Rich ridge- Crystal walk

The Dragon's Backbone, Tabur Hill ( Recorded 16KM Long)"This Tabur Ridge is a long and narrow series of karst hills with a high content of Quartz crystals. The ridge itself, averaging 200 feet high, runs in a semi circle bordering the eastern edge of Kuala Lumpur city. The Tabur Hill Ridge is rated the Longest Quartz-Rich Ridge in the world. Quartz is one of the three common components in the formation of rocks. Quartz-Rich Ridge - as the names implies, the trails and surfaces around the Ridge is littered with Quartz crystals (Individually or in clusters, large and small). The Quartz here varies from totally transparent to semi opaque, with most of them whitish in colour. You can see them shimmering on the ground reflected by sunlight as like mirror reflections.The trail is a narrow path on top of the Ridge with some stretches only allowing a single trekker to pass through. The trail passes through stretches where the left and right side have vertical drops of up to 200 feet, leaving the trekker with not much room for any other alternatives. The trail is dotted with low vegetation, made up mostly of small trees and shrubs (affectionately known amongst the trekkers as “Bonsai”). This low vegetation enables you to see and gauge the distance between one peak to another." article by endemicguides.com

great friends i got to know that day
breath-taking view
some slightly dangerous spot.. some spot are quite challengin for a-moi like me..

haha.. friends assume i have no problems because my limbs are long ( like apes i suppose)

happy me!

after the strenuous climb, we indulged in holy food food food... here>

happy seasons restaurant, which consists of 4 areas, summer/autumn/spring/winter.

we went to winter part. freezin cold there :)

does this picture look familiar to you??? hahaha.. guess!!

happy!

2010-01-10T08:01:00.001-08:00

i felt so contended and excited.. imma shouting this out loud!

i managed to convinced papa and mama

to let lil bro shawn learn saxophone.

reason:

i believe child who plays musical instrument are unique!

i just couldnt describe .. but like it or not , WE ARE SOMEWHAT SPECIAL!

i play the piano ( and a tiny bit of violin),

bro christopher plays the violin,

and now lil bro is gonna play SAX!!!!!

cool to the maxx..

by the way, if bro melvin is reading this... you play dotA too..

.haha wtf fair nuff.

alright..

this has been dragged for so long.

daddy and mummy took eons to agree ..

though they both agree that they need to let didi shawn take up some music classes.

they doubt whether SAX will be the right option.

at 1st didi wanna learn drums. (but mum strongly oppose)

then she wanted him to learn something like piano/violin cos we have piano at home ( which i strongly oppose.... cos i believe it's better for us to learn DIFFERENT musical instrument.

so as to be unique { i wouldnt want anyone to put my siblings into unhealthy comparisons.. saying who plays better than who}...

and one day while i was you-tube-ing... i suddenly heard a jap artist playing Sax... it was way too cool! and i thought to myself.... if didi shawn can play that during my wedding ( alright.. i've thought too far... but hey, that's me) how nice on earth could it be?!

thus i started to search for qualified teacher ( a good teacher is damn important ; pls refer to my previous post HERE )

my violin teacher then recommended this young ( but experienced) teacher for me.

i've took some time to talk to my parents.

they were excited at 1st, too..

but later dampened by the fact that..

it's not as simple as we thought.

you know why?

after surveying the fees of the lessons and the price of the instrument..

we almost CHOKED.

simply because saxophone lessons were SO EXPENSIVE .

and the instrument costs a fortune. the one his teacher recommends costs bout 4.6k

and mind you, we're not from a rich family.

after serious consideration ( thanks to my persuasion skills and psycho strategies.. haha kiddin) , parents finally say " OK"

we shared out our part.

daddy mummy both shares the cost of the instrument.

mummy and i both sponsoring 50-50 of the lesson fees.

daddy responsible for fetching bro to and fro music school.

didi shawn responsible for practicing hard and learning with dedication and make us proud.

so TODAY : MONUMENTAL EVENT >> didi shawn got his SAX and started his 1st lesson!!!!!

*****clap handss*****

imma big proud sis!! i was so excited...

when we just bought it... and didi is trying to hold it using his tiny hands.... i felt like there's an invisible hand patting my shoulder... im glad. so glad.

by the way, that damn expensive gold-and-silver-plated-thingy is so effin heavy. i think it's heavier than my bro.

daddy said " so here's a motorbike ( the price) " let's see why:

*************CUT & PASTE FROM WIKIPEDIA********( you may skip this if you're not as interested like me)********The saxophone was developed in the 1840s by Adolphe Sax, a Belgian-born instrument-maker, flautist and clarinetist working in Paris. While still working at his father's instrument shop in Brussels, Sax began developing an instrument which had the projection of a brass instrument with the agility of a woodwind. Another priority was to invent an instrument which would overblow at the octave, unlike the clarinet, which rises in pitch by a twelfth when overblown; an instrument which overblew at the octave would have identical fingering for both registers. Most saxophones, both past and present, are made from brass. Despite this, they are categorized as woodwind instruments rather than brass because the sound waves are produced by an oscillating reed, not the player's lips against a mouthpiece as in a brass instrument, and because different pitches are produced by opening and closing keys. Brass is used to make the body of the instrument; the pad cups; the rods that connect the pads to the keys; the keys themselves and the posts that hold the rods and keys in place. The screw pins that connect the rods to the posts, and the needle springs and leaf springs that cause the keys to return to their rest position after being released, are generally made of blued or stainless steel. Since 1920, most saxophones have 'key touches' (smooth decorative pieces placed where the fingers touch the instrument) made from either plastic or mother of pearl.

Other materials have been tried with varying degrees of success, such as the 1950s Grafton plastic alto saxophone. A few companies, such as Yanagisawa^[10] and Bauhaus Walstein, have made some saxophone models fromphosphor bronze because of its slightly different tonal qualities^[11]. For example, although their designs are identical apart from the metal used, the bronze Yanagisawa A992^[12] saxophones are said to sound "darker" than the brass versions. Yanagisawa and other manufacturers, starting with the King Super 20 around 1950, have made saxophone necks, bells, or entire instruments from sterling silver.^[13] Keilwerth and Paul Mauriat have made saxes with a nickel silver body like that of a flute^[14]^[15]. The effect of material on sound is controversial among sax players, and little solid research has been published.

After completing the instrument, manufacturers usually apply a thin coating of clear or colored acrylic lacquer, or silver plate, over the bare brass. The lacquer or plating serves to protect the brass from oxidation, and maintains its shiny appearance. Several different types and colors of surface finish have been used over the years.^[16] It is also possible to plate the instrument with nickel or gold, and a number of gold-plated saxophones have been produced.^[16] Plating saxophones with gold is an expensive process because gold will not stick directly to brass. As a result, the brass is first coated with silver (which will stick to it) and then gold-plated on top.

Some argue that the type of lacquer or plating, or absence thereof, may enhance an instrument's tone quality. The possible effects of different finishes on tone is a hotly debated topic, not least because other variables may affect an instrument's tone colors e.g. mouthpiece design and physical characteristics of the player. In any case, what constitutes a pleasing tone is a matter of personal preference and tastes vary*************************************

so it's didi's 1st lesson.. imma so kepochi i asked permission from the kind teacher so that i can be there in the room to accompany didi (only for the 1st class... sigh)

i wish i could be there every class.. but i know i wouldnt wanna disturb them by doing thus didi christopher and i joined the 1st class as naive observer to have our curiosity feeded.

it's not easy to learn how to produce 'sound' by blowing.

i know didi is learning attentively and trying hard.

teacher teaching didi to blow the mouthpiece

didi's new property below.

so..

ending my post here full of hope..

i wish 'one of my dream' will come true.

didi shawn and didi christopher playing duet on stage during my wedding dinner.

i dun care whether it's 'mary had a lil lamb' or 'twinkle twinkle lil star' or etc.

any song would please me :) im waiting for the day. i know it wont be long.

2010-resolutions

2010-01-09T08:57:00.000-08:00

i know im abit late.

yet. it's better than none

1 week past, and i havent really set my goals for 2010?

believe it or not, i took one week thinkin seriously into it and here it goes,

my 2010's resolutions:

1. control my expenditure and save up!

aahh.... i know how impossible it sounds but hey, being aware of my dangerous shoppin habits

is the FIRST step, and a big one. blame it on my fashion sense... i (think im) getting better and

better taste each year and my style grows with time :) but this put a pinch in my pocket too.. i

rejected low quality garments and lookin into more classy ones, which usually cost a lot more higher than what you can get from sg.wang etc etc..

damn.. a good dress doesnt match with so-so shoes.... so when you have a good dress and a pair of stilettos, ya low quality ciplak bag stands out!. and when you have the full set of nice garments, ya fugly nails or ya bad hair irritates ya... gettin pretty is never an easy task!!

it comes holistically... that means more effort and $$$...

cinderella wont look nice if any single part of her turns to pumpkin...

glad that i do have nice tshirts and shorts that can go with easy breezy sandals... that saves for other not-so-glam days. i do enjoy dressing down sometimes..( stil the quality of shirts and shorts counts !)

alright 2. no more impulsive buys from now!!! which is my 2nd resolution.

i know i can refrain from " wow.. this dress looks damn damn exquisite on me." " another must-have!!" " it totally brings out my attitude /sexiness/ feminity/ qi4 zhi2 etc" " see how gorgeous the color of the dress matches with my brown hair??!!"

mom once told me, you can never have enough shirts/dresses/etc

every piece will just look pretty and nice on you, because you have nice ( alright, she said perfect, because to her, her daughther is perfect... im replacing it with the word nice, because it's more acceptable by norm) body figure.. if every dresses you try look nice on ya.. you'll be buyin the whole store .. ( agak -agak like that la... i can remember the exact sentence, but the meaning is there)neva really realized till i was packing (for moving to the new place), i bought too many stuffss. maybe she's right.

and thinkin bout how hard she work to earn money... im pretty much determined to achieve this goal. ( im not that selfish as you thought. i did contribute a tiny part financially to my beloved family too!) and mama was saying that because she wanted me to save more for the future.

neva realized how much i've wasted money on unwanted stuffs TIL i was packing last year's december, before movin to the new place...

i was flooded by zillions

bottles of unused/ half-used beauty care products (thank god i found a product that suits me, thus end all those silly purchases of ineffective products), hair care products including curl cream, conditioner, leave-in oil etc which i never bother to use... body lotions and hand lotions and whitening lotions and moisturizing lotions ...wtf... nail polishes (thanks to my violin classes, couldnt keep my nails long, thus im starting to save for nail polishes too!! ), magazines ( im pretty occupied with work and some other good reads like harry potter and stuffs, thus this can be scratched off my shoppin list too!)

damn im guilty now. gals out there, please tell me you're in the same condition so that i'll feel better bout myself.. puhleaseee...

wow..

now i found ways to really cut down my expenses.... hmmm cleva me... lets see, what else..

ohya... 3. i pledge to take college bus everyday from the 2nd week of 2010 onwards!!!!

simple maths.

taking college bus to work: rm 0.60 per ticket

to & fro: rm 0.60 x 2 = rm 1.20

taking metrobus to work: rm 1.00 per ticket

to & fro: rm 1.00 x 2 = rm 2.00

taking taxi to work : rm 6.50 (sometimes 5 something. depends on different metres)

to & fro: enough said.

im not that stupid, i know how to compare transport fares... it's just that...

the reason im taking taxis would be --- > over-slept

---> rushing etc. (alright you knew me well)

and occasionally, on rainy days/ scorching sun/ mood swing / period.

after tabulating , i think i can save up A LOT! if im willing to wake up early/take/wait for college bus every day.

exceptions: when im not well etc la... i can come up with endless excuses de. haha

4. work harder / no more procrastination!!

im now intended to change one of my most prominent characteristics.

i am efficient. and im proud of being efficient, in the sense that i can work fast within short period of time (usually during last minutes..) and produce good quality work nevertheless...

but feeling threaten by the thought that im gettin older ( 25-to-be).. and not having any major achievement etc, it's a shame to waste time.

probably, doing things early allows more time to either do more meaningful work/ venture more/learn more/explore more/rest more/play more......

well. i just need to get rid of my lazy worm and start to be more serious in stuffs im doing.

who knows, i might just perform so well and achieve greater heights?

and before 30 i'll be rich and successful! ( alright, i know i sure will. trust me)

4.2 Practise harder on my violin.

that day before class, i reached the music school early. upon entering, i heard BEAUTIFUL melodies...... ( went breathless.... im pretty much swayed by it... )my violin teacher was playing piano/violin duet with another teacher (who conducts our junior chamber practises) and they looked as if the world out there no longer exist.. they're in their own pandora. great .. great .. great music. and im blessed to have heard it LIVE.

so there i was standing outside the door, neva wanna disturb them, not wanting to let him know that i've reached because i know.. if he knew, he would just stop ( and there goes the "feelings" and .. arrgghh .. im running outta words to describe. ) they're playing with such precious mo4 qi4 ( those who're good in eng. please help me translate)

so.. it's like 10-15 minutes standing outside listening to them playing ( i know im abit psycho)

i was so envious, if not jealous bout them..... sigh.. what m i doing when i was young.. and now that im 25, oopss.. 24 to be exact... i couldnt do that...

so when i finally pressed on the door bell and they stopped and my teacher came to greet me and open the door for me... he asked " what did you put on ya face?" ( silly him, i was sweating heavily.... it's so hot outside £$&*^%) ... and while he's carrying the book stand ( i dunno what it's called) into the room and preparing the room for our lesson to start, he is humming the unfinished song they played.. hmm.. hmmm.. hmm..

gosh. i wish i were not there.

wish i neva interrupted them playing.

i felt that im so "extra" at that moment. such a killjoy .

argghh.. i'll practice hard so that i wont let him down.

*** he's one of the best teacher you could eva find. serious.

without him, i would have given up violin quite a long time ago.

and everytime i felt so guilty to him because i dint practice well.

so .. this year onwards, may i practise more and more..

violin is such a beautiful instrument. argghh..

i wish i can play as nice as how i look in the photo above. ( refer to the image of my header)

5. to be more independant

it's not that im not able to... im just used to be pampered by yao yao ( of course, i wont trade anything for this) when we're stil housemates back in ss2 and in block B.... i get so pampered by him.... TIL we live separately now ( he's back in p.j, i moved to block A) it's been sooooooooo long since i last CHARGE MY Handphone. ( he did this everytime, til i forgot that our hp needs to be charged) He used to filled up my water bottle ( now i need to LEARN to do it on my own).. suddenly i felt so handicapped without him.

and i miss him alot... ( and the stuffs he did for me while he's near)

now i can only wait for weekends to be with him

( and we're both busy sometimes during weekend : work/ family and stuffs)

argghh. i wish our weekends are longer.. like 9 days a week? or 8?

6. eat/sleep/shit/ healthily.

dont need any reasons for that. basically because healthy = beauty too!!

promised myself to drink more water. ( guess you'll wonder where got ppl set this kinda resolutions 1? ) for those who knew me well, they've observed that i rarely consumed water during the day, as well for the nights. when yao's here, he's always upset not because of my temper/demands/etc.... he's usually upset when i dint drink enough water / dint take good care of myself. mummy does the same. so from now onwards, i'll make sure my body is replenished and hydrated by the Great H20!!

others:

6.2 sleep early ( sounds impossible... hmmm i dun believe i can too.. scratch this?)

6.3 eat more healthy food :)

6.4 swim at least once per week? ( i can imagine potato pei nodding vigorously when she heard this)

7. NO MORE TEARS

okay. i know i can do this.

i cried too often all these while.

on average once per month.

(usually PMS)

im a big big cry baby. i can cry for big/small things.

family/relationship/work/dreams/

and once i start, i find it effin difficult to stop.

and i felt good bout crying .. haha

thus, for bringin peace to yao's life.

i hope i can make myself happy this year and perhaps... no more tears accept happy moments/ touchy touchy things

8. try my very BEST to achieve my dreams

i know it's a bumpy journey. but thins would be meaningless if there's no challenges/ obstacles.

so . i'll do whateva it takes to bring myself closer to IT. i know i 'll be there soon.

-nuf said-

9. buy my very 1st gucci/chanel

***** there goes no. 1 and 2.

10. i'll save it later... there must be sumthing.. i just couldnt think of it now.

shall end this post now. (refer to no. 6.2)

bless me with strong will and faith and perseverance that i can achieve the above.

lotsa love.

sweet pussy~~

2010-01-04T01:56:00.000-08:00

some of ya noticed im a fan of this >>>>because..?

it comes in pink and white ( fav colours)

it's adorable

girly and sweeeeettt...

hmm.. and it doesnt has a mouth.

means no bitching haha..

nyways, while i was shoppin with yao yesterday in

wangsa walk mall (near my place).

i was glued to these....

hello kitty parfum! ^^

call me act cute/bimbotic/childish/princess wannabe/watsoeva.

"im so gonna have this" i said to myself.

comes in 3 different types, all with different tones and scents.

1st bottle:

verdict: a bit too strong for my liking

like the packaging nyways..

2nd.

verdict: erm.. okay okay ler... nothing special... smells quite similar to my overdue

bodyshop EDT

3rd.

Verdict: AAAAAAAHHHHHHH ( orgasmic)

the second i sniff it, it awakens the baby princess-y in me!!!

oh... it was mild. it was so pure and soft.

hate those perfum that have very strong connotation and strong existence.

unlike those catchy and attention-grabbing scents, this one is very subtle and innocent.

kept me sniffing for more, as if it comes from a soundly asleep baby.

~ very very natural ~

i can totally be comfortable in it. as if im born with this mild and sweet scent.

this 3rd bottle is alcohol-free. that means it's gentle enough to our skin and according to

the salesgal, even babies and toddlers can use it.

if i have a baby, wouldnt think of spraying expensive perfum on him/her lo,

not because it's a waste of money. it's unhealthy. (though some perfum is safe to be used on babies) i stil wont do it....

cos all the while to me, baby smells good, they smells just fine.

( i kinda addicted to their natural milky/powdery-scent dunno why, thus explained how much i enjoy sniffing my 2 younger bros when they're still babies)

hmm... i wonder why human were not born having nice smells...

imagine when we poops, it smells good. when we sweat, it smells good.

when we pick our ears, the earwax smells like rose..

or etc.

the world will be a better place.

suddenly reminds me of ppl in lrt/bus with strong B.O

or ppl in the lift on saturday afternoon that smells like the just woke up from 100 years sleep

. .. i can totally imagine how their bed and old rugged jeans and dirty t-shirts smell.

i dun understand. at least you should bathe 1st before coming out from ya house and haunt others.

OMG. they stinks.

or. other option. pls invest in deodorant or etc. it's definately another form of pollution too, mind you.

nyways... i always tell baby yao he smells great. i like his natural B.O. dunno why... haha

i heard that if couples like each other's scent it means their genes are compatible with each another's...... wonder if he likes my smell too.

*** some students said my hair smells good. kinda funny and weird they were standing close to me asking bout assignments and all of a sudden, tells me that my hair smells good.. -.-lll****

alright back to my kitty parfum, comes in 3 sizes too.. of course i chose the largest one. value for money ma:) as im a big fan of perfums and EDTs, i found this relatively affordable compared to other mega brands like paco rabanne ( dun correct my spelling), jean paul gaultier, j'adore' dkny bedelicious, burberry etc. thus if you're looking for something girly and sweet, and affordable... choose this...>>>>

i dint notice this til i post this pic... saw silly yao yao invading my sweet picture. hmmmpppfff..

**********************************************************************************

i know it's kinda irrelevant here, but i think i should post what yao bought on the same day too.. i think it looks like my brother christopher.. sorry didi... haha, this is cute too ( in a totally opposite way in comparison to my kitty)

that's for now. bye my dearest blogdersss!!! :*

my last post

2009-12-30T20:41:00.000-08:00

this is ma last post.. (for 2009, dont fret)

time flies.

another few more hours, we'll be marchin into 2010.

i guess it happens to losta ppl out there, everyday seems to pass by faster and faster.

without realizin it, a week followed by another, and one month is gone just like that.

i dun even feel like i have time to breath.

yet there's so many things to do,

so less time for me. (though i slept a lot, and fb alot)

and now im sitting here in ma office,

having 3 hours break..

waiting for the 3-6pm class

(OMG, who'll wanna work on new year's eve?)

fortunately i brought my lil white lappie

which i can online here ( office PCs dont have internet connection, how hideous)

lotsa things happened this year,

just let me do a BRIEF summarization.

1. i've visited clinics for about 10 times this year, have had health probs ranging from diarrhea,

gastritis (is that how you spell it?) , food poisoning, flu, fever, sore throat, and a lot more wtf.

2. i've learnt a lot of new stuffs

eg: photoshoping boobs (though i neva post/use/publish my photoshopped pictures, i

swear... did it just for fun), violin, ermmm..... im sure there're more, i just couldnt think of

any right now. learnt to use double eyelid glue. ( now you guys out there knew im faked up.

hmmppfff.. maybe i shouldnt have tell you this)

3. i had the scarriest nightmare

from which i woke up and cry disastrously and shocked baby yao.. luckily he was there to

wake me up gently by calling "bubi.... bubi...... bubi.... " and comfort me right after

anyway the dream was about being isolated and ignored by friends.... featuring alot of my

buddies.. what a dream!!

4. had salary increment!!! and bonus!!

though the amount is soooo insignificant to the naked eye, it's stil something good right?

5. got to meet new people

met some wonderful people @ work and play. a lot of gratitude for those who passed me alot of positive vibes and encouragement, for those who believed in me and shared a lot of

laughter together.

6. parting with some special ones

2 special friends left the country to gain more personal/professional exposure, left me

wandering what the hell im stil stuck in m'sia and when's ma turn.. haha..

anyways, im happy that they have the oppotunity and may my friends be safe and happy

eventhough they're so so far away.

7. reconcile with someone important

tears dropped when i saw the message left from this special person. all my blessings with

him/her. im glad im stil special ( or at least i believe i am) to you :) some bonds are so strong and indestructible, it'll connect us together regardless of the distance between us. love you lotss

8. got a new lappie.. and it's no ordinary lappie, it's my lil white mac baby

alright i should stop hao-lian-ing about this AGAIN & AGAIN in every blog post. haha

9. made lotsa mistakes

..... learnt how to accept failure and embarrassment, regrets and guilt, and stood up and get over 'em and move on.. nah, we couldnt afford to squat at the fucking same old spot we fell

and mourn for too long, just wipe ya tears and get your butt up... the world is too happening for us to hide in the corner and cry for decades, we just need to keep exploring and learning, and failling, and falling, and getting up again, and learn how to just start fresh again. nothing waits for ya. you just need to constantly pick up/catch up with the crazy pace.

10. went for a breath-taking trip

sun, sea, corals and reefs, tans and coconuts, and sexy bartender.

buddies and i were exhausted and all stressed up in life, thus went for a very nice and sinful escapades...

photos here

11. gained weight and lost it off again.. muahhahaha.. curse me for having slim legs, be jealous.. muahaha....

12. lotsa friends and relatives got married this year, indirectly reminding me in a harsh way

that im AGING.

13. biao-mei wenwen gave birth to a sweet and lovely baby girl.. arwwwww...... jealous jealous..

i knew it's other ppl's business not mine, but im so gonna post it too anyway. the baby is

sooo cute.

14. watched both lil brothers growin up into a man ( stil in process).

OMFG they've both 'sprout' and gained so much height. not forgetting those cute lil zits all around their faces.... muahahahaha. now, it's their turn !! dunno why, everytime when im

with my cute lil bros, i'll felt like i owe them a lot... (maybe im staying far away from them and only got to see them bi-weekly), my motherly instinct will sorta flow.. i just hope

they'll grow into a healthy man and love their life as much as i love them now :) sometimes it's so heart-warming that when i reach home/ leave, they'll hug me tight... arww... and

sometimes they'll call me at night and ask me something bout the pop songs they're

listening to and talk bout their school and clubs and not forgeting " pet society stuffs"

etc.......in silence, i selfishly hope and pray that they still love me this much, and we'll still

be this close to each another in heart even when they have galfriends and stuffs.

15. went for a drink with a guy i admired MANY YEARS AGO and chat for quite a long time,

that night we when sat together and talked about lotsa things, the number of words or

things we said that night far exceeds that of what we had during the 2 years i knew him. Ha! during that 2 years i was so timid and shy ( but im courageous enough to wrote him love

letters and even gave him my diary.. and then he started dating my best friend.. and of

course it breaks my heart that time.. and we lost contact for many many years.. i think if im not mistaken 6 years ago?) anyway, the past is the past, im happy with my life now.. i dint regret doing silly things i did last time cos i felt that i'm receiving all the good 'karma' now muahahaha... and im cherishin my love life now more than eva.

nevatheless felt relieved that he's doing fine and striving

hard for his career and future now. dunno when i'll be seeing him again but i think that's it :) im contended with this state, it's no longer an unfinish-business of my past anymore. i've found someone dear to call my man, and i am very much satisfied in my relationship with my baby yao. not that he's perfect or what, i just think that i couldnt find anyone else who better suits me more compared to yao. and im so so glad and blessed to end up with baby

yao. just hope we can grow old together. ( oh yao baby, dont get too happy now, continue reading, there's a small part solely dedicated for you!! * wink*)

16. tried Icewine.

OMG.. it's uber orgasmic!! a sip of it sent you to heaven.

had it for our valentine home-cooked dinner, me and baby yao adores it very much.

17. witness the hardship of baby yao and his achievements.

this year is an effin busy year for yao. never ending work work and work .

i was beside him i saw his effort, i saw how hardworkin he is..

and i look up very much to him. man who is serious in his work is always attractive.

*blush**

nyways, i knew i changed a lot for him too.. i became less demanding ( i think la) and more

patience (alright, need to confess, i'll stil get upset and angry sometimes but i'll get over it very soon). i learnt to be more independent and strong especially when he's not around.

and i knew i need to give him enough space for him to strive hard now :)

we both do not come from rich family, yet we shared the same spirit and goals, that is to

have a better life for our future family and also to let our parents taste abundance.

and i know he mean it by observing his action. im amazed. apart from working, he helped me and my family alot, especially when it comes to fetching me here and there. ( im the eldest

child, too many responsibilities to bear, but he supported me and help us through, when

daddy is not free to fetch didi for violin classes, he'll be the one who'll make time to help us,

when mommy need someone to help her pay car installment etc.. he'll be the one to help and never ever have i see any hesitant or resistant of him or any grievance of him in helping us)

when im tired and wanting someone to comfort me.. i'll stand up and move one fast when i

know he is even more tired than me haha..

his work requires him to travel, and imagine when he just started working, he has no car.

he's buzzin from place to place in kl/pj/klang valley by PUBLIC TRANSPORT. imagine that.

imagine taking lrt --> bus--> taxi to a place under the hot sun and then was told that the

client wanted to cancel the appointment. if i were him i'll be very DULAN and cry lo.. ( no la.. just an expression).. but again and again he showed resilience and stood up fast enough with positive vibes and spirit and patience.. and continue his work with lotsa dedication and faith.

but his effort bears fruit. haha. and he's qualified to have me... ( poke my nose high high!!) hahaha.. all in all, just wanna say i love him and appreciate all his hard work and

contributions! and those days we need to take public transport for a date.. and now at last, he has his own car :) yeshhh im proud of him and i neva hide this!

***salute*** im learning from him and i know i can be as good too!

alright enough polishing his shoes, i should move to the next item before you guys close this window

18. 1st time experiences.....

of...

~ involved in junior chamber ochestra

~ modelling for a friend's photoshoot (just for fun nia, nothing professional. nyways, i like the photos very much ..

**p.s. SKY, this is a subtle reminder for ya, stil owe us some other pictures... hahahaha***

~ wearing a lovely kimono

~ went clubbing with my brother

~ learn to hold and play a violin ( always wanted to do it since eons ago)

~ some painful experiences which i neva wanna mentioned here, thanks baby yao and babe

peach for all the emotional and physical support. i'll be strong, i have to.

~ took initiative to volunteer in doing/learning something new. Thx Dr. Chai for the

opportunity.

~ learn to use a mac.. ( alright.. ZIPPP ma big mouth)

~ wore a bikini, (in gold colour mind you)

~ did facial (ahh... i should've discovered this earlier. to hell unsightful skin and pimples...

my face GlOWS now.. maybe not yet, but it's getting far better than before.

~ did pedicure.. it sorta tickles.. but it's sooooooo pampering and yumsss!! love it!

~ and MOREEEE...... im running outta time

19. this year passed by so damn fast!

i've shed tears and shared laughter.. make friends and (hopefully not foes).

stood up tall, and growin strong. learn to love myself more and more and more ( i think my close friends starting to get annoyed by my vainness n narcissism. anyway. i have no regrets on things i did n m looking forward for new year ahead. full of hope and faith. wanting to gain more wisdom each day!!!

alright. bye all, rushing for class.. might blog very very soon i'll be free 2 weeks later. (wicked smile)

have a wonderful year ahead!!

happy 2010!!!

love y'all very very very the much.

hohoho !!

2009-12-28T08:28:00.000-08:00

moved to new place..it wasnt easy.

4 gals did it on our own! haha.. proud not?

felt like hua-mulan suddenly for those few days..

lotsa bruises and cuts to show off!

introducing my room! ( our room actually, im sharing it with potato pei)

some beloved stuffs:)

OMG if there's a sudden earthquake or evacuation etc.. i would die in " indecisiveness" because i have so many precious stuffs to be saved. which one 1st?

christmas hat in pink. kept it for years. stil looks brand new, agree?

dont have the courage to wear it outside though... i looked like a ding-dong in it.

here stil okay, maybe because it matches with ma slippers?

japanese doll from bukit tinggi.

jean paul gaultier (is that how you spell it?) from dad

one of some stuffs i bought to pamper maself. eyemask from la senza. with diamante.

eyemask becomes handy especially when you're sharing the room with ya babe.

water tumbler.. (sigh, i conned yao in buying me this as i promised to drink plenty of water. but...)

graduation gift from yao baby

floor mat from watson?

okay i dint make ma bed. i dont think it's neccessary as you're gonna fall asleep on the same place every night. what's the purpose of folding ya blanket if you're gonna use it very frequently across the day? opps.

roomie pei babe has another pair..hers--> lil moo moo cow.

messy. you'll know if you're a lecturer

yao's christmas pressie for me.

we both know the story behind this gift. kinda touchy.

lil white- nothing-extraordinary-box.

unwrapped.

OMG i said. when i saw the words.. wateva it is inside. i dun care.

platinum necklace with topaz as pendant. major loves!!!!!
look good on me bo??

here's my gift for him

( i know it looked a bit ciplak, but hey, im broke and it wouldnt mean anything if i buy him something expensive using his own money. that's why i decided to give him a self-made calender filled with our photos, since he's moving to his new place too. he needs a calender.

though i did felt a bit guilty to show my gift. it looks a bit cheap in comparison to what he gave me

merry christmas everyone, how ya celebration??
okay, lil white suddenly appear out of nowhere. ( kinda random i know)

photo taken during my 1st performance ( violin junior chamber) for christmas celebration of the music school. played songs like:

- elderweise

-the circle of life

-phantom of the opera

**can you spot me?

lotsa love, bye!

this post is kinda short ... im busy. told ya.

harlow...

2009-12-08T00:16:00.000-08:00

sorry for abandonin my blog for ages..im back!

the reason i wasnt updating was:

1. lack of motivation

2. lack of time

3. lack of a functional laptop ( gotta scratch this, as i got my new lappie

4. lack of energy

5. lack of pictures ( was being demotivated by the quality of pictures my phone takes)

6. lack of a conducive environment

7. uber heavy teachin load.

8. plus i've volunteered to be involved in a research study ( halfway through though)

9. yao was super loving thus butter was more inclined to spent time with him instead of bloggin, it's not that he is not lovin in the past, but things just get better, or perhaps we dont have much time together as he's busy with work at ALL times, we cherish the moment spent together more than eva.

10. alright, gotta confess im just lazy.

11. i know im lazy usually, but not to that extent if it is not caused by factors 1-9.

12. i have plenty of excuse

will be bloggin more often though, coz:
imma gonna repeat this again and again...

i've got a new macbook!!!!

the 1st day of using it was memorable, or say, difficult.i cant even "right click" using the trackpad.felt like im a new bridegroom who's so excited bout gettin married and yet doesnt know how to Fuck his wife during their 1st night. alright. not that bad.but i just have to admit, im not I.T literate, and being a new mag user is a breath of fresh air on moon.. let me tell you the truth what i know bout computers are just :

-powerpoints, spss, words and excel

-the spider game

-FB

-reading blogs

-bloggin

-emails

-research

-ppstream **

-google for my fav fashion accesories.

-etc ( limited)

**having said that, i cant watch Sex & The City now on mac as it doesnt support pps, or pps doesnt support mac ( i dunno how to put it, either way will do as long as it makes sense to you)

nyways, im lovin my mac more and more every day as i discover and learn how to build rapport with this white baby.

indulged a lot in photo booth (vain me.)and i tunes...
evidences as below:

unlimited camwhores using the built-in camera called isight !!

in my pyjamas and XXmakeup

yao laughed at me at 1st, and then got infected by the C-W syndrome too!

pic below taken when we just got it! carefully unwrapped the package, and here's our spankin new baby!!

alright, this post shall end abruptly. wait for more.

love & peace,

butter the happiest.

randomzz..zzz..Zzz

2009-08-11T08:53:00.000-07:00

simple ways to make myself happy:

1. pretend to be literate by :
idling at some cozy place i called home.
and camwhore at the same instance.

2. heels that kills for a shoe-fetish, moi!

females neva eva have enough pairs of shoes....

might wanna introduce my whole collection nex time.

3. new lil' storage for my countless beauty products and accessories. ( 3-tier cabinet in the middle ) great steal from watson.

4. new googles.... swimmin is therapeutic and rejuvenating.

5. pinky heart shape mirror to feed my narcissism.

one of the very precious way to get connected with my inner soul.

see the side mirrors? i can easily check whether my lashes are standin in the correct degree or allignment bo. or to check whether yao is gazing at me.. or what website edwin is browsing at. ...alright ignore the pink letters.. some says positive inner talk helps change stubborn facts.

--------------------------------------------end liao-----------------------------------------

* i wanna post my redang pics... and make you envious bout my trip.

* wanna post a lot of other things as well

* but cant upload photos.. wtf. a lot of kinks in using blogger.... hmmph!

* heard that tonight might have meteor rain. wish to witness one of these while im living on earth. * fingers crossed* wish you luck too! * slap ya butt**

* bye

yay!!

2009-08-02T06:33:00.000-07:00

i've lost weight!!

10 advantages of losing weight:

1. able to slip easily into shorts effortlessly
.... without extra flesh ridiculously dangglin

2. you gazed longer into the mirror. admiration drenched from the top to ya toes.
it's nutristic and therapeutic to be a narcissist periodically

3. you feel lighter while you walk...... safer when crossing the traffic

4. higher self esteem + confidence = more contended body image + sense of accomplishment.

5. felt more healthy and energetic---> you just wanna stay outdoors.. (who'll
notice ya perrrfect body when you're hibernatin in house leh..)

6. your man'll get comments ( or rather compliments) from his friends saying that
"hey, you've changed gal friend a? is that the same gal you showed us last time?
she looks different now.. pretty" ( cant remember the exact words though they rehearsed
a zillionth times like chants in my head)

7. whateva you tried in the fitting room looks like they're perfectly meant for you, and you
only. (and it boost satisfaction during ya shoppin session)

8. you'll get compliments from ppl you dont know. ( in front of your man's mum)

9. more pretty, attractive, sexy

10. more pretty, attractive, sexy

anyhow, there's some disadvantage too de....
( no matter how thin you sliced a hotdog, it's always two sided)

disadv 1: your boobs of pride shrunk

disadv 2: you'll feel less guilt indulgin in desserts and other fattenin foods........

disadv 3: ..... thus innocently allowin every edible object on earth

disadv 4: you look like you're wearing your mom's formal trousers to work.

disadv 5 : alright the 5th and last and most prominent killjoy is still --> your boobs shrunk.

damn

damn

i'd rather have small boobs than to have humongous thunderous thighs.

alright. i rather not have both.

alright. i dont have a choice.

ohya. forgot to brag bout my trip in redang. will probably reveal more next time.yao's craving for his fb games now, gotta return his pc to him now. my lappy sucks..

( attached below: preview of the mighty redang trip: sun, sand,breeze, bikinis, charming surfer boy, and the turquoise sea.

wenwen's wedding

2009-07-18T23:15:00.000-07:00

so as i mentioned in previous posts,
my same-age cousin waves goodbye to her singlehood.
there goes the wedding pictures/ some camwhore pics of my very own.

yea.. most are my pictures.

cos this is my blog wut.

to view more on her wedding pictures,

click my fb acc.

http://http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#/profile.php?id=534468376&ref=profile

MJ gone?

2009-06-25T17:53:00.000-07:00

micheal jackson dead?
duwan la..
i like him what.

still remember
me , my bro, and my dad loves to watch his
videos at home (when we still stay in popo's houz)

then later.. when i get to know yao,
he's also a big fan.

loves all the dance moves, all the signatures.
MJ is a legend to me.

MC?

2009-06-25T17:34:00.000-07:00

been sick really.
very sick.
not h1n1 dont worry.

got my mc to prove my alibi.
haha.. but one thing i found,
being a lecturer,
getting a sick leave is nothing exciting.
as i need to dig other time to replace those classes.
not to mention,
the kinda look i could expect from my student's face
when im telling them about replacement on their holy saturday.

i try my best not to place the classes on saturday.
but it all depends on the availability/scarcity of classes in
the mighty large tarc

if we really have no choice,
hope you guys can understand la hor..
thanks for all the concerns anyway

just another random saturday

2009-06-05T19:45:00.000-07:00

have tonnes of pictures to upload yet i cant find ka fai's cable..
damn..

a lot of things to say. but dont really know where to start
point form, do you mind? ( haha... you dont have a choice, dontcha?)

(in no particular order)

- i met Prof. Robert Burden to talk about my intention to further
my studies in uk. he's a very kind scholar,
gave alot of insights and advice to me..
which university will be an ideal place for my study,
which programme i can consider venturing in.
gave him my resume and personal profile, he's quite impressed.
now im still waiting to further contact with him,
and waiting for the decision of my superiors..
sounds interesting huh?--->
though nothing has been confirmed YET.
now im making myself clear here..
so.. try to refrain from asking me when i'll be leaving.
i wish to know too.
but i know im still fighting for something i long for since so long
i hope somehow> hope will find a way.

no im not counting the eggs before they're hatched.
im just praying, wishing, and still emitting positive frequency to the universe.
will work, kononnya.

- i dyed my hair again.
at 1st i opted for a greenish-ashey-almond-coloured-kinda-blonde.
like the caucasians, not so much golden blonde.
it's the middle of being a brunnete and a blonde, in a greyish shade.
understand?
doubt you can conprehend what im trying to say.
anyways....
my hairstylist commented that, that colour will washed away very soon.
he recommended my to dye my hair into blue 1st ( yes, blue)
and then let it wash off to turn into the exact colour i adore.

1st thing: dye my hair blue? (it's not like bluish-black mind you. it's BLUE!

2nd : im not sure my boss can tolerate such a disturbing hair colour of his subordinate,
not to mention when our clients are STUDENTS. what type of role model im playing?

3rd: my hair is quite long. how can he be sure that when the blue colour wash away, it will be as even, as balance, as throrough, instead of patchy, ill-matched, like disgusting colour run on our garments?

4th. by the time all the blue colour wash off, i think my black roots will start to grow again and become sickenly obvious.

haha.. thus in the end. i decided to just dye this colour straight.
who cares when the colour doesnt last, it will still turn into something brownish which is viewable and acceptable for me.
i am dreadfully wanting to show off my new hair colour yet.. i still cant find that damn cable.
maybe next time.

i've slimmed down but that was long before i wrote this entry.
damnit. i was so confident and feeling light previously.
can you believe it.. my humongous gigantic elephant-ly thighs were "sliced" into digestably thin pair of legs.. yes. im serious.
i went jogging with darl, and trekking (okay, only once).. and most important of all,
i skipped carbo-riched food especially for dinner. thus i was obviously toned down.
mummy, my roommates, dear yunyun and my darling can be my witness..

now.. coming back to here-and-now.
i've blown back into original size liao.
damn those yummy delicious cuisines,
damn the weather,
damn everything,
damn boredomness (when im bored, i eat)
damn happiness (when im happy, i eat too)
damn politics
damn education
damn fast food
damn junk food
damn desserts
damn fathers and mothers day,
damn birthday celebration of my two little brothers.
i can still think of an infinity list of things which i can damn for!

im now FAT!!!!

hmm.. hopefully by the time i can show you guys my picture,
i can cut down my weight again...
sob sob ... i really miss my small thigh...
miss the day where i can flash my legs in shorts with my head held high.

a friend of mine went through something that devastates her.
it was a heartache to see someone you love and care, get "bullied" and hurt by other morons.
thus, my maternal instinct suddenly glow and grow.
now she's standing strong after the rain and storm.
pray that she'l love herself more after all these years.
i personally thinks that she's of high qualities that some damn fools doesn deserve her. thus,
to hell stupid ignorant fools.
get your dirty hands off her.

as she's pure and with dignity,
she deserve someone better. whom will show very-very-the-soon.

(somehow i got a feeling if she's reading this, she'll be pissed off cos i have not get her consent,
bla bla... at least im not announcing your name what.. you let me blog la..im short of blogging material plzzz)

i watched - night in the museum and angels and demons.
my verdict: love it... love demons more..

i have better skin liao!!!
im so happy i wanna shout to the world.
previously i was cursed by never-ending-popping-out-of zits
after considering for long, and trying numerous products that claim-to-be effective.
a colleague of mine, miss E recommend me this..

though it's an OUCH! to my pocket, it is marvelous!!!!
now i have better complexion. serious.
but im committed (or say, motivated and reinforced) to use it's product continuously.
if you wanna know.. ask me ask me.

yao also mentioned that i have glowing clean and clear skin now.
muahahahahaahaahahaahaha to hell pimples!!! i've diminished you stupid!

my cousin is getting married this july.
i am trilled! happy and excited!!
she's of same age with me:) we somehow played together when we were quite small,
attended the same kindergarten and primary school.
now she's getting married. i had a lot of mixed feelings...
happy for her.. and also reflecting on my own destiny.
is what i want in life too much? will it be more comforting to just settle down, start a family.
taking care of my love ones..
in the end of the day, the ultimate goal is still love.
hmm.. i stil need more money, and exposure, and money, and clubs, and money, and dresses, and play, and pink pink stuffs in my room, and money, and brandys, and gucci, and lv, and chanel. ( talking bout chanel, yao mentioned he used to pronounced it as chan-nel.. as in t.v. channel.... haha.. damn funny, after correcting his pronounciation, he's now pronouncing it as xiao niao.... damn (lil' bird: in mandarin)

ooh.. im still too far away from being committed to a lot of responsibilities.
i love babies anyway.
maybe i should consider getting a dog.
and no other dog but cute lil brownish toy poodle that has the magical ability to melt my heart.
yes, sometimes im quite kind hearted. besides being selfish, impatient, grumpy at times.

im dying of thirst and the absence of pleasure.
cos.. most of my friends show off here and there in fb, fr, blog, whateva, their victorious pictures of their beach vacations..
i started off to hint yaoyao that i long for a beach holiday. after sometimes i become more assertive and ask others whether they wanna join. and after sometimes i become aggressive in looking for some tour agents... and after sometimes i gave up.. and after sometimes i began mentioning this to yao a million times a day to yao.. and later on i started to dream of it. and later now im mummering to yao in an unprecievable desibel, a zillion times per day..
damn.
do i need to wait to summit my application to santa in dec?

god.

m i too much?
i've been wanting it for sooo dammmmnnnnnn llllloooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnngggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg

(stil waiting)
and now my semester starts dy.. after 3 weeks of stretching my neck. now everything is over.
i shall die in dissatisfaction and envy. not wanting to reincarnate.

my classes starts dy. im teaching developmental psychology(lectures and tutorials), as well as intro to psychology (tutorials). stop asking me something like, huh you teach in the college ar? tutor is it? not lecturer la.. > how can you judge my ability by my age ne? if you think a 24 yrs old graduate do not have the ability to be a lecturer, you are very-very-the-wrong. haha and what makes you think a 52 yrs old is more efficient and more able to teach? get my point?

anyway. im just enjoying my work though sometimes im mad busy. our working hours are kinda flexible , maybe one day only 4 hours etc.. yet, you wont know how much effort one is putting behind the scene, when he/she reaches home. we need to be very well prepared in our 2 hour lecture/tutorial. and imagine how to arrange your flow of thought to talk 2 hours nonstop.. this is what im still learning and constantly need to brush up on.

though my way of teaching requires a lot of "cracking-my-brain-to-satisfy-students'-crave-for-fun-learning-activities-and crazy-games", i think every effort worths! hope this contributes to my year-end-bonuses too.... ahem** anyway. the major goal is to keep myself interested, else, my students wont be interested as well. right?

alright im tired after all these ranting..
shall end this with out-of-date-pictures (stored in yao's pc for centuries)

----------------uploading failed.. dont ask me why. at least i'v tried----------------------------
thus, no pictures today. damn damn damn

shattered.

2009-05-18T01:41:00.000-07:00

i was totally left out today.
you told me you are going to arrange it for me.
you told me it's gonna be 20 may
you told me i'l be involved in this.
you told me it's a golden opportunity for me.

then you told me things went out of plan right now.

no one bothers to care how i feel today.
of course.
perhaps..
im too timid, contemptible and inconsequential to you guys,

are my dreams shattered into pieces because of this?

yet.

i'll be standin strong tomorrow.
full of confidence and pride.
because if you think im weak, you are yet to know me.

i'll prove you wrong and show you that,
i worth it.

and im extraordinary.

watch this:
http://http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Um9KsrH377A

guess..

2009-04-20T21:03:00.000-07:00

do you know what is this :)?
and what's behind this :)?

or even if i do like this :D?
can you feel the meaning behind em?
or the meaningless/ emptiness inside them?

:)

:)

:)

:)

:)

addiction

2009-04-16T02:45:00.000-07:00

im lately addicted to:

-reading other ppl's blog (as usual)
-reading mag
-reading chicken soup for the souls
-rushing to work (cos i slept late.. till mid-noon)
-self-made fruit juice
-gardenia butter scotch bread dipped with soya milk
-pet society (a game in facebook.. damn damn cute)
-spending money (as usual)
-pink gadgets on my table!!
-listening to club hits
-black violin's songs
-and watching this clip in youtube.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6PPlkOyaqaQ&feature=related

goin to have my short holiday soon
..................................................

darling~ i long for a sea side vacation.
i wanna go to the BEACH~~~~~~~~~~

what would you do when you're all stressed up?

2009-04-10T22:19:00.000-07:00

this week aint no ordinary week.

at work place, we were so stressed up as some government qualification body will visit our college to review on the course units we're teaching. hmm. it is actuallly more serious than how i describe it here. we recieved orders that it is compulsory for us to sign in 8.30 am in the morning and leave office at about 5pm each day for consecutive 3 days!! @#$&^%$

hey. but that's what working ppl do what.

they start and end workin at this time what.

who m i to complain now about the hussles and tiredness we had durin this 3 days. hmm..

i should have lots and lots of gratitude in my job.. really.

m lucky to have to wake up naturally by my own bio clock, have one or two classes and head home all these while. or even just to sign in by day without having any class on particular days and then home sweet home again. i wonder how m i gonna survive if i were to change my job to any other9-5s .

so.. these 3 days were exceptions to my honey moon job.

when you're so tensed up for certain big function and responsibilities. what would you do?

cherish the beauty of mother nature. if you were made to pull yaself out of da bed unwillingly,

take deep breath in the crisp of morning breeze, have gratitude in the magnificent view of sun-rise and tell yaself, this is it... good day ahead. bonjour~ today is gonna be a lucky day for me!!

something related to the law of attraction la.. will attract more good things in ya life if you are thinkin of the positives and feeling positives kononnya. anyway, though thinking positive and feeling positive, i lost my office keys today... perhaps i didnt thought hard enough.

darling yao ask me to help him in this jack pot thingy.

tada! i won the highest number of tokens. yes. using the power of visualization and positive thoughts. believe it or not. maybe will try again the same technique someday in genting casino.

by da way, having said bout the law of attraction, i explained this well-known thingy to lil brother christopher one day in bus. thus we experiment it and it turns out to be ...true!!

in random i asked didi to imagine what color of shirt will his violin teacher wear that night when he will be having his violin class that night. he just simply answered.... red? and i think he tried very hard in visualizing and believing what he imagine...

he called me that night saying that her violin teacher really wears red that night. chill down my spine. nyways.. will talk more bout this 'law of attraction' in my coming blogs la.. now not in the right mood.

loiter-ed in the library acting literate, and grabbed some souvenirs back.

these books are trully interesting i can say.

imagine yourself, just out from shower, lingered with that scent of sweet baby body shampoo .....

curled up in ya comfy bed reading some of these......

while rejuvenating and invigorating ya tired skin....

(hey, who doesnt look wierd in masks.)

im not sure bout other gals. (i think majority will agree with what i say here)

when im doing facials or skin-caring/ hair treatment/ pedicure/ manicure/ lotion-ing/..

i feel great like im treating myself good, pampering myself, or in other words, loving myself..

that boost level of endorphine :)

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check our my newly-renovated office,

received a very thoughtful gift from the publisher, wiley..

it's a ......

stick-on notes... i lurrrrrveeeee stick-on notes.

i use em as book marks, as cue cards to improve on my french.. to leave loving messages to yao..

as reminder... and many more... thus this gift from wiley is quite handy :) enamored!

in my office

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lastly, the ultimate way to unwind when you're tired/down/bored/tensed/etc...

im goin to poppy tonight!!!!!!!!!

will update more pics soon.

updates *01

2009-04-10T21:48:00.000-07:00

permed my hair again.
darlin got new toy.
butter got new shades.
definately good reasons for my addictive cam-whore.

that necklace im wearing with purple-colored flower pendant was a souvenir mummy flight from korea pour moi. apart from this lovely necklace, mummy also got me pair of contact lenses.. damn damn damn love em.

lil nous nous i use to conquer and dominate spaces in yao's car.

below's my navy-blue-colored-faux-fur-bag-with-diamante-crown.

grieving another lost of.....

2009-03-24T17:47:00.000-07:00

it's been a long while i havent blog about some

not-so-sweet-things that happened to me.

my life has been great all these while.

this kind of feeling best metaphored by something

like this--->

"while im starting to masticate the sweetness of citrus,

i accidently bite on its bitter seeds..and the taste of it all went wrong

in that spur of moment."

i am totally devastated these days.

misplacing something i shouldnt have lost,

something indispensable.

something vital

something exigent.

or whatever you called it urgent.

i searched and hunted all over the place but to no avail.

tears and grumble, comfort of love ones were of no help

in easing the pain and guilt i have now.

that thing was so damn important to me.

or, i should say to everyone else especially to me.

i need it urgently.

really (teeth grinding~~~)

can my prayers be heard and thus find back that precious thing?

i dreamt of it for several nights.

i thought.. it should be somewhere here,

no.. it should be placed there...im not sure.

my nerves already got my brain, to create certain

unwanted illusions, false memories related to that thing.

m losing my sanity... i suppose.

is the power of "the law of attraction" omnipotent enough to bring

back that lost object of mine?

sorry to those who care.

it's not that i dont want to stand up again on my feet

and move on instead of squatting on the same position i fell,

mourning, and groaning about the lost and pain i had.

it's just that..

it's not easy for me.

it's not easy to be.. me.

grieving the lost of....

2009-03-09T18:37:00.000-07:00

what happened these few weeks were tad complex for me
as i was weighing whether i would willing to lose my enamoured long nails
so as to learn something i long for since a very long time,
or to keep my sweet sweet claws and thus forever stay away from string instruments.

So choose one below
a. Long nails or violin class?
b. Violin class or long nails?

Choose one of these below too
c. An elegant violinist with short ugly nails
d. Or a woman with long elegant nails but could never touch any string instrument

see, what's a woman without her long nails.
you know what, if you are keeping those nails long,
you would understand that your body language, posture etc changes as well.
because you need to be gentle and soft at all times to avoid hurting 'em.
see..

i love this very much, looks inobvious but nevertheless sweet.

alright.

my fingers were born to be blunt and stupid( i dont know whether this is the right description but they do looks stupid)

so, without long nails, my fingers would look 5.256 x 10 99 ( in words : five point two five six times ten to the power of ninety nine) times uglier and stupid-ier.

argggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh.... finally, i made a tough decision.

and thus typing this post of grieve.

lamenting over the lost of my beloved nails.

my nails lomy nails again lo

alright i should stop all the mourns and start introducing my new baby-------------->

since im still a newbie, no point for me to post any disturbing vlog of

torturing this new friend.

till

im ready to hao-lian( show-off), i'll post my very own ...haha. deal?
m listening to lots of lucia micarelli's songs now.. damn nice i del you.

she's pretty, gorgeous, sensual, talented..

arww....

ok, back to me practicing.... =P (ohya, with my ugly short nails, i play better piano too. i hope this would make me feel better.................................)

jay~bee~

2009-03-04T23:11:00.000-08:00

it's been a long while darlin yao yao stuck his butt here in kay-ell, acting more like a KL-ian compared to the local me... not fair, i lost my way in KL too often, and he's often the one leading me, showing which way i should go, which bus to take, which turn to make, which station for lrt n monorails... thought he might miss his original habitat, i proposed we should have a vacation back in his hometown. so, on one fine friday we headed south.

the more-than-5-hours-bus-trip kills me everytime. im not keen on long travel by public transport. it makes me ill and giddy, causing nausea n migraines, i dont wanna niggle on those details, you see?.

we reached at about 6 somethin.. waited for his parents to close their photo shop. and rushed for dinner. his parents brought me to a place where his mom calls it " fei1 tian1 yun2 tun1 mian4" in english----> fly sky wantan mee. yes, literally, the mee is flewn up vertically by the hawker whom i salute him as 'sifu', till it almost or already touches the ceiling, and plunged down, collected precisely by a bowl and then served to us...
sounds inhygiene? try not to think too much while eating out in mamak or stalls.
as chinese sayings mentioned "big germs digest small germs"
whos to know who processes your food and how and why and what goes into your delicious meals even you're in a damn high end restaurants?

after that "family reunion" dinner. (as yao havent had dinner with his parents for god knows how long), yao brought me to this romantic place...~ danga bay~(as it's been awhile since we last pak-toh dy... haih.. no thanks to our hectic schedules)

tada!

found a nice spot for us to make out, er.. i mean chill out.
it's named blue bayou... nice atmosphere.soft breeze from the beach.. had some beer. some old hunk sings while playing on his guitar. it was damn damn relaxing and comfy. i didnt wanna go back. that old hunk's voice is just damn mesmerizing. m totally in love with this place. the guards in the zoo aint efficient enough.. u see the one left unlocked?my mexicana hat~ oi oi o. mistress potato.. the ship in which yao's friend had their wedding dinner on. romantic hor?
but those guests who turned up late would be sad lo. cos i heard that the ship boards on time.
imagine me wearing wedding gown, and my carelessness n stupidity caused me to slip and fell and there goes another rose. i'll think of another awesome venue for my wedding which is more safe-concerned. on a jet? may i? or in spaceship? what bout sub?
saturday morn~
i was awake the whole night before. had insomnia...
anyhow managed to drag myself to have breakfast with yao and family
we had yao's 2nd wife----> kueh-tiao-kia.
could hardly find this in KL. let me know if you guys knew a place which serves this.
as a newbie to keuh-tiao-kia, i learnt to like the taste of it because of yao.
would like to try it again and again whenever im in jb.

then we headed to a hill. and this aint any ordinary hill,
according to yao's father this is bukit bendera, or somesort of kite hill.
such a coincidence these ppl up there are having the "international kite festival"
many countries participate in this.. japan, aussi, us, germany, etc.. i dunno. i think so.

see the lamp post? it's malaysian traditional kite--wao. Wao is not wow, though it's pronounced as wow. but it aint anything that you would wow at.
my fav kite with that flirty expression was aftering the kite beside, asking for msn add gua, i supposed.hmm.. should i get a better cam?
found that the pics in my blog aint as interesting as how i described them to be.
as you can see below, it's like the underwater world. we have mr. sotong the squid, and ms. cuttlefish, lil nemo, mr. too-cute-for-a- shark, octopus and sea horse.. well it aint clear here in the pic.. my fault.that sperm-like thingy is supposed to look more like a cobra.
see that ED tiger? (yes im refering to erectile dysfunction)
took quite a long time to rose from the ground. and to the max, the mighty tiger stil cant find his way up, thus this half-sleep-half-meditate-posture.
oo.. another fav of mine.. see this line? look closer.. it's actually made of made small kites tied adjacent to each another.. (cuttle-fish-look-alike) this is from korea.
it formed a ladder way up to the stratosphere. i think this was designed as such inspired by the famous koread soap drama--- stairway to heaven?
lil frog turned up under the sea~that two lil red thing looks like rambutans which hairs had just been shaved.no idea whether this is consider as a kite or else.
yet yao adore it so much that he decided a transplant.nothing special bout this nemo skin, it's merely used as a background so as the colors of my dress stands out. saturday afternoon.. we had this famous mee rebus near...........xxxxx (dementia? amnesia? ... i forgot the place, it's somewhere near the customs.. near to my friend (lilo and fion)'s high school, based on tour guide--yao.
delicioux!
im not sure it's due to the food, or my hungry pangs..

on the last day (sunday), we went to jusco!! .. jusco in jj kinda huge, compared to the tiny mini humble lil alpha angle jusco here in wangsa maju. it was uncle's birthday so..
we had lunch in manhattan........ manhattan's fish market.
i cant remember what name of the dish we ordered.. but it's flaming something XXXX.. and other platters.. as always, i love the food here, as much as i love their mocha.
taste great!!

i was very much inclined to this...such a sweet n lovely vintage window display, xiangyao's friend own this florist shop..im totally in love with it.

the most valuable things in yao's room ---> yao's collection of................something which would hardly relates to him. i bet he havent read any 10 of these..

and i think his many years of collection was for me. ahem~

anyhow this is his real passion~

so yao got infected by my contagious disease--> cam-whoring in front of the mirror.

notice yao's dog (by the way, his name is sei2 ye1, in english---> bastard, nop.. er.. i dunno how to translate, it's rather mean)

happily got myself some new miniatures..im having more and more miniatures in my collection.

used it for expressive therapies... used it in my class, used it for my students' activities... they like em so much. as i told you before symbols, or miniatures/ figurines are powerful tools in psychotherapy. ppl identifies with these symbols as representation of themselves of someone they know and kinda project their emotions, thoughts onto em. recieved many positive feedbacks in using this as part of counseling sessions. (maybe i should post more bout my symbols/figurines/miniatures here in my blog to hao-lian (show-off) to you guys.

my fav-->

packed up and headed back to Kay-el again.

m so lazy to work.

v ' 09

2009-03-02T21:38:00.000-08:00

due to a gigantuan hole burnt in his pocket for our '08 christmas eve.

we decided to have some sweet home-cook food for this year's valentine.

reminiscing our celebration for a few years' valentine's day:

'07 he sang love song to me in front of other club members during our club activity, when i was still the chairperson of the club. damn wierd feeling but nevertheless sweet and touching

'08 went melaka, one day trip. it was sweet too.. see how high we soar?

photos here..

'09 valentine's day..

bought some wine .. oooh.. my reason to live in this world.

haha.. see, the mighty butter prepared a 5-course dinner for yaoyao..

he helped a lot in scrubbing those stubborn stains on the wok too!! it was gross, thus my nails were very well protected.

LE MENU DU JOUR

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Grilled salmon marinated with mixed herbs and whiskey

topped with lemon slices and horseradish

Chicken thigh marinara served with

sizzling black pepper sauce

mixed vegetable soup with oriental herbs and anchovies as base

served with small shells

tricolore pasta spirals fucilli in bolognaise sauce

cooked with jalapeno pepper slices and crab filament

french baby potato and cherry tomatoes salad

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the wine that goes with these meals

canada's Icewine.

i had a friend who told me, chilled wine is better than ice wine what?

aiyo~ ice wine is not wine with ice cube la.

Ice wine = (or icewine, as one word, or in German, Eiswein) is a type of dessert wine produced from grapes that have been frozen while still on the vine. The sugars and other dissolved solids do not freeze, but the water does, allowing a more concentrated grape must to be pressed from the frozen grapes, resulting in a smaller amount of more concentrated, very sweet wine. With ice wines, the freezing happens before the fermentation, not afterwards. Unlike the grapes from which other dessert wines, such as Sauternes, Tokaji, or Trockenbeerenauslese (dunno what the heck are these), are made, ice wine grapes should not be affected by Botrytis cinerea, or noble rot. Only healthy grapes keep in good shape until the opportunity arises for an ice wine harvest, which in extreme cases can occur after the New Year, on a northern hemisphere calendar. This gives ice wine its characteristic refreshing sweetness balanced by high acidity. When the grapes are free of Botrytis, they are said to come in "clean". Due to the labour-intense and risky production process resulting in relatively small amounts of wine, ice wines are generally quite expensive.

to recapitulate: these wine are great!!!!!!!

im totally in love with'em.

taste sweet at 1st then gradually ends with a fragrant crispy citrus-y taste, sweet yet stil high in acidity. this wine satiates all the nerve ends in my tongue with distinctive sense of young yet elegant indulgence.. life is great with these around.

apart from these romantic lil things we had. the funniest part is,

we shared the space with another couple, ka fai and dai shou.

so when we dine using the japanese type of table (lower table) and sitting on the floor, they were just adjacent to us, siting in chairs and using a much higher table..

it's so wierd but fun!!!! hahaha..

so we pretend like couples in those high end dining hall, who dint know each another.

as yaoyao just format his pc, we can hardly retrieve back those lists of romantic songs.. out of desperate, he found "unchained melody" and then repeat it over and over again.

suddenly, our dinner became more formal and serious.. hahahaha.

after the temptious meal, we lit up some tea-candles (remained in my drawer..)as well as aromatic candles,

indulged in those remaining wine in my room,

sipping it bit by bit.

chatting about those old days we had together..

those bittersweet memories,

and the crazy things we did..

all by the candle light, albeit the small numbers of em.

not long before my other housemates reaches home and laugh at us.
haha...happy valentine my darl,

though you're not rich nor handsome, not taller nor wiser,

you are the only man i trust with all my heart and soul.

for not wanting or demanding from me.

though im not pretty nor sexy (ahem.), not gentle nor considerate enough,

always careless and emotional,

you take me for who i am, love me and protect me out of no conditions at all.

and i've been learning from you each and everyday.

learning to love myself like how you loved me,

learning to cherish you like how you treasured me.

........ it's been a long while i dint tell you...

.. that i love you..

...... and you're still the one my heart beats for...

CNY lou-sang with buddies

2009-02-22T23:10:00.000-08:00

called up close buddies to gather in wangsa house
-------> lou-sang la!!!!

we had some simple food dabao from downstairs' stalls..
some sort of fried mee fried rice ala hokkien and cantonese.
when you have great friends around, doesnt matter what you gorge into your stomach.

still well-soaked in CNY mood.. such ineffable joy we had while we played firecrackers...
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thanks willy for dabao-ed some kfc to satisfy our taste buds.

(looks like he kena molested or what)... yet stil look happy la

lil princess picked the firecrackers gingerly, keeping the furthest distance from her body. adui. david showed no emotions on his face.

now too much

ooh.. kafai's espression here was classic!

love her smile. so natural and sunny~

felt insatiated, we bought some beers..

so, the god father of all alcoholics..

someone damn creative, use tea cups to drink carlsberg. thought sake meh?

another genius. mixed with crysanthanum tea

great bunch of friends, great night ..one of those indelible memories of mine.

GRE

2009-02-15T21:29:00.000-08:00

prepared this for so long (o.. oki la.. not so well-prepared. and have been loitering for so long..

no thanks to my heinous, atrocious laziness!!! )

even had countless coffee to reduce my pressure..

this is my enamoured spot to study for this test.

immured myself here to concentrate upon my preparation

for those who are wandering..

GRE stands for .... graduate record examination

it's a kinda computer adaptive test..

for more information or to get a taste what this test is like,

see here, and here.

so.. i sat for the test on 12 feb. it's over now... "phew~"

i scored quite well for my quantitative part, but not my verbal part because of those alien vocabulary

which are beyond my ken.

damn.

luckily i got a feeling that my writing part is gonna be great. (6th sense)

though the results were not out yet for the writing part...

pray la. pray la.

so.. im free now!!!! (pun intended)

im free from the strains of sitting a tough test.

im free from bondage.

im free from guilt

and im free.. (nothing to do now)

im damn free now. at least for a week,

am having my semester break now for the 2nd week.

ladies, shoppin time,

buddies, clubbin time,

gang, partyin time,

wentworth miller, breaking free time (from prison)

mirrors (preening and acting vain time)

cameras (whoring time)

my love, pamper me time!!!

ohh.. i want someone to spoil me rotten.

spread my wings, stretch my wings,

see me soar..

for a few days.

gatherings!!!

2009-02-15T21:21:00.000-08:00

some old junks again. could not gloss over the fact that im lazy, and i wouldnt gainsay that im such a profound in procrastinating. never too late to share em with you right?

there you go, U6B2's gathering.
wansia's manifold kindness drives her to call many of us, salute to oc (organizing chairperson)!!!
we met in ss2 Leo's..
no idea why they named this place Leo's.. no sight of a lion or whatsoever..
no nexus that binds the atmosphere/surroundings/decor/etc with the name of the place.
anyway, it was damn fun.
whole bunch of us turned up. some said 70% attendence wo.. no idea, sucks at maths.
see.. we almost conquer the whole place

abit hard to take group photos when you have an enormous group of ppl

sis... remember we used to hide in the tunnel and sing some good'ole songs?

still remember wansia so altruist.. gave a her whole collection of edison's poster/ mag cover etc. i stil have em in my room in subang. and she's the one who always made DIY card for us during our birthdays..

i was asked to sign my will (err..each and everyone of us needs to sign on an autograph la)

my hiong1 lei2... same kampung..

some notstalgic shots by some artistic photographer.

had loads of these..